This is gonna be interesting

I always knew that it wouldn't be easy for us to get pregnant. I mean, we are missing some of the necessary parts and equipment, but I guess I had no idea about just how much work we'd have to go through to make this real for ourselves. I already feel like we should have started this process six months ago (and I guess if you count the weight loss, we did), but I just want it all to happen now. I mean, even if everything is perfect, I still have to wait a year and a half from now, and that seems like a really, really long time.

So in the meantime, we're trying to get all our ducks in a row and make sure we're doing everything right so we give ourselves the best chance possible. I know it will happen, one way or another, sooner, or later. Cory (who does my hair) suggested I read a book about enjoying the now and not anticipating whatever comes next. Clearly, I'm doing a poor job of hiding that aspect of myself. I should probably read the books. It's probably a good idea.

And I also want this documented. Just in case I forget.

So far, it's been weird to talk about this process with other people. I mean, I don't know a lot about the process - we're learning as we go, for sure - but clearly, other people are curious, as well. I know I'm going to have to get used to people asking about details.... how, when, who, where. I mean, no one asks those questions of straight couples, for sure. I get it - people are curious. And to an extent, I guess it's an opportunity to educate others about the whole thing, but it's just weird. It's weird to be talking about fertility monitors with strangers at wedding receptions. It's weird to be talking about sperm with friends. It's weird to hear other people's opinions (and trust me, they have them) about how we should go about it, where we should get our sperm, how we should get the baby in, how we should get the baby out..... but I guess it's all uncharted territory, anyway, so we'll figure it out and make our way, and hopefully, we'll get a baby out of the deal.